Hellooo!!

this wordpress is confusing me, oh well. So are many other things in life.

So this is it. I am living in Northern California, totally vortexed in. And i am feeling the urge to get on the move, but powerful forces are making me to be patient and see what is happening. Today is 3oth and tomorrow is NYE, and i am gonna go to San Francisco to a Goagil party and trance everything out of me. Once in a while, escpecially when we are at the ocean, i tell to my self, that it soo amazing what i am experincing now, who knows, what else life has hidden away for me. It is sooo Epic here, the Pacific is full power. And each time i am running out of words..

to be continued

It is here and it is now

i am fully aware of the mometn, yet i still fall asleep once in a while. I am so grateful for the global family we are all part of.

Loving..

So after the Gathering what was called Precense, there was thanksgiving. That was my first thankgiving and i did eat some Turkey, it was ok, the rest of the food was amazing though. Food, sometimes i feel here we concentrate so much on it. Well it is how it is. We also went to a little party thing up the coast one hour, to see a friend djing, and on the way back the circumstances were that i had to drive the truck a stick(manual) and it was fun. I am working on my drivers licence i have the written test done, now just the driving test.

I am also pretty set here, i am not really travelling, maybe a little bit here and there. I almost went to NYC to sell toys, but now i realized that i dont need to go anywhere. I have realized that it doesent matter if we run, cos we will arrive to our challenges and lessons anyway it is just the matter how fast you wanna learn.

Also reconnected with a beautiful friend who i met at Fusion festival in 2008, instant family. I have had great meeting at Fusion festival..you guys should check it out.It happened to be that he was living around here for two months like me, but we didn’t know, well everything in its own time, right! Also through this meeting i just reconnected with mytravelling self and understood and felt that it is ok to not know, and it is important to give ourselves time. Also told me about consequence neurosis, it is when you are afraid t do something, cos you are not sure whta is going to happen afterwards, so let’s heal this stuff…this is way to go..  let’s live our lives..

Me and Sylvia have been like sock and a boot together. She is a libra with gemini rising and me i am a gemini with libra rising..we make super good team, take care of baby dance and  make things happen.And we have been diving into this astrology book Linda Goodman Love signs and it all makes so much sense. It is trippy. Have learned a lot what it means to be a gemini, i mean not learned, but now i can understand some things more.  But still from the aspect of the Galactic Federation this probably doesen’t even matter. Just love one another.

After these couple of days i feel very fulfilled and happy, it is ok to be a gipsy and so much more i would like to write, but it just it. Life is great. I have been feeling that Europe is the next place i wanna go, not sure where yet, but it is calling me. Around February, i just want to have something to do. Where i would go.  The home feeling. Usa rocks, especially here in nor California, man don’t get me wrong. I am having a great time and learning soo much about myself.

ok gotta go and get some wood to make a fire in the fireplace and the full moon is creeping from behind the trees and calling me.

It feels like i am getting closer, but where am i going?

I just read my last post and realized that everything has changed since couple of weeks..hehhe

I am back in California and we just had a really nice gathering with friends from Shasta and Eugene. Also we had the best sound system in the world.  http://www.funktion-one.com/. It is amazing. The speakers look like alien heads screaming. By the way many channels have told that the alien will be coming around Christmas. You think we are ready guys? Ready to let go of the bullshit and drama and come together. I don’t about you guys, but i feel very strongly that something is happening to us, and really the question is what to do. and more and more i feel it is just about opening and living in peace and evolving our habits and behaviors.

The fact that i feel that we are not alone makes everything so much easier i guess. I see the Universe and the big picture and i don’t get trapped in my own personal drama. Yet sometimes i still find myself swimming in the ocean of sadness. But the point is that we enjoy it, fully. However it is not personal. it just is.

Last year when i was leaving my friends in Spain one of them said, what ever you do don’t stop going. I am still going for sure, but where? You know it doesen’t matter. We are all here and we could just love one another and enjoy ourselves and be true..and be real..

everything shall pass

Learning to drive

This is where i am at. I am in Austin, Texas, what a weird place haan?? well it has been really nice here actually. I came here to spend time with a friend here and also with my friends from california, away from the house we are living in. It has been a beautiful journey for all of us. Yet today again i am a little bit homesick. I feel that i am in general very tired of putting myself out of the comfort zone, i feel rather good here in usa, but it is still not it. Ya’all know what i mean.

Somedays i feel like i am on the top of pyramid standing on my big toe, looking down to the world and cheering my lungs out and the other day i will be pushing my face againt the mud i have inside of me. So hard to find any balance inside, yet i feel that i can cope with all these situations much better now, than i ever have. I feel strong.

 I feel that there are things that i can do, and that i should do. and then there is reality. Well lets say i just give myself sometimes a hard time and forget that we are part of the galactic federation and that actually what ever happens doesent really matter. Yet it creates the whole universe. The easiest way to explane is that i like to drive myself crazy.

I have two destinations in my mind. Thailand or home, i do feel that i am going home to Estonia. In january or so..

 

Here is Austin the weather is great and i feel pretty good..i am with people i love very very much

San Francisco..dreanim’ livesessions

We took of from the Zuvuya aka The NasTea co. headcuarters. And founbd ourselves in San Francisco in this cool hostel the Green Tortoise. So inspiring, my friend back home would love it here. America is crazy I am telling you. You know these moments, when you want all your friends to experience what you are experiencing, well this is where i am at. I fe I would love to share all these moments with so many of you, but at the same time I know that where ever we are it is just perfect.

I have been living with my friends in northern California for last 2 months in their crowded house. The house is amazing and so are the people who live there. It is really showing me how to come togteher and make the dreams come true. We are the ones we have been waiting for. Yes..no more waiting guys..The time of the shiwt and all such is here and now. We create everything. We have created the fastfood, the cars, the countries and we have created peace..every little bit of what our world is..we have created it. We can transform and reshape it, if we would only choose. Pick a good life!!! My life seems sometimes like unrelated streams in the river, but yet i know that it is all about the journey. not the destination.

I am not sure, what i will be doing next or how my life is gonna unfold, but i feel it is all gonna be just great. What is mpre important than enjoy life and love eachother?? Please tell me. I have been guided so well by life, or what ever force is it..

 

tomorrow i am heading to Texas, yes you got it right. Halloween in Austin and friends..mmmm

Trust the force!!!

We are the ones we have been waiting for

Hey Loves

I am lost, but yet very here. I feel that i am far from everything that is away from this house. Far from newspapers and tv and radio. I am here with manymany people coming through. This house could be a festival all the time. two sets of big speakers, djs living here..

I feel the intensity of us being all together and making it happen together. on 21st of november there is going to be a gathering just on a farm close by. A family music gathering.

I am noticing how i start to speak more and more american english and i do miss speaking estonian. I feel fulfilled here and i donno what the future will bring. I have found my family, part of it is here. The sad thing is that there is tons more in the world, but we can’t get our shit together and live all together. and why should we.

I am hoping to spend my halloween in texas and do a californian drivers licence.

I am in love with life..i don’t have too much too say these days. But we can do it. The shift is already here i feel the galactic changes. I just don’t know why..my human mind can’t grasp it..

Inside is outside

Hey fellow Gods!!

I just don’t know..Really mom told me that she doesen’t understand what i am doing with my life. Many times it is unexplainable, you know what i mean. What i do know for sure is that life is taking me to the most amazing and loving places the more i go, try new things, listen to my heart.

I left Estonia 15th of august, like a month ago, i went to Germany and spent beautiful days with a very special being. Days on the lakes just close to Fusion grounds(the festival i love in the end of june in northern germany). This time in Germany really showed me how life carries me and help to relax when i get lost in this hectic world we live. Helped me to realise what i have inside of me. You see, for me it takes the world shine on me to see the shine inside, we all have it. Some of us are more connected to it and through that live a more peaceful life. I also spent 2 days with my sister in dusseldorf what was a total oppsite from the lakes. But beautiful in its own way, brought some more teaching to my path..Meeting my sister, well halfsister has been one of the most important and interesting meetings this year. Also just to know that i actually do have a father gave me another piece of puzzle i am putting together in this lifetime. It is a nice puzzle i like it.

After Dusseldorf i flew to London and had a 2 hour walk on the streets of London, never been there before so weird to look first on the right before crossing the street. It was empty and sunny and this is not how i imagined London to be.

Arriving to USA. I crossed the border in Atlanta on of the biggest airport to come in. It was nice and easygoing. I arrived to San Fran and the next day took a bus and hitched to my friends place in northern Cali. And here started the preparations for Black Rock city, the Burning Man project. We had one week to get our stuff together, and me i was really blessed to go to my first burning man with these guys:) Very organised and all about having fun. We left California with an RV(Camper) and a pickup car, totally loaded with all kinds of things, bikes, fuel, generator, tipi, couch, costumes and water and of course a lot of amazing food. My first day in the desert was hot very hot, but then i got used to it and plus at burning man it is totally ok to walk around half naked. total freedom. It is very hard to put burning man into words and i almost dont want to cos i want you guys to go and get the full experince without previous images or stories. oh well..

Yes Black rock city was beautiful, i fell in love with this place and the playa( this is how they call the desert) just embraced me. The dust..i became the dust. At burning man there are common dust storms, this is why you have goggles with you where ever you go, cos you never know when it hits. there were some moments where i was in the middle of nowhere with my bike and the strom came, so i couldnt see anything, it kinda empties your mind also. And you realise that there is nothing to look for or expect, cos everything is just here, right now..Our camping situation was great also. Having the tipi was great, it kept us from the heat, the night cold and the duststorms, but it still had plenty of playadust everywhere. The dust is so thin, so it gets everywhere and stays there. I just surrendered to the dust. The Black Rosk desert is one of the most amazing i have been lately..specical

now we are back in a house full of family, babies, loud music, sewing machines and love.. it is beautiful and warm. getting ready to go to a festival in a national park with friends, great music and bears..uuuuu

i love you all veryvery much..

don’t forget to visit the black rock desert in your dreams..

..and there it goes again..

I have had a wish to write for a while now already. Now i have one more week left in estonia, then i go to Germany and then to Usa.

Right now i am recovering from an illness that i had last week, the lunar ecpilpse day was the hardest. Life is still throwing challenges and questioning me, but i am gonna keep on going. As my friend said, my legs are shaking, but i am still going. discovering exploring and tripping life. We create our own lives:)

This summer has been the best, or why should i even compare it to something. Many festivals and people celebrating life with music and love. Beautiful..and so fulfilling

and this year sooner than ever i am leaving just in one week. This time my visit home, has been very brief. Travelling what i have been doing is quite a challenge also, but i am lovin it. It has fascilitated me to meet all these amazing beautiful people.

Oh and i am going to burning man, it is unbelievable, but i am doing it. and i am gonna be there with all those crazy freaks i have met, while i was in the Us last winter.

I feel blessed to have a life like i have.

My second Fusion festival

wow..i have no words to decribe it once again, but i will write something anyway.

4 days, 11 or more stages, kino, theater tons of cool people and freakland..

This year i was at the Fusion with 2 friends of mine from Estonia and we all worked in the chaishop where i already worked last year.  We hitched to Berlin and then went straight to the Fusion grounds, so i spent there amazing one and a half week. Oh man. the festival lasted 4 days..

I worked hard, slept little, danced, connected with beautiful people,ran around and didn’t leave the festival ground. This year there was like 70 000 people on saturday, which is kinda the main day. So many people come without even really knowing the lineup. This is some amazing time. I truly recommend fusion to everybody.

We were working by the Dubstation and it the best place to work, well sometimes the base was running through my everything like a bulldozer, but i can handle that.hehee

and right now i am berlin and it feels soooooo weird.

anyway travelling makes me feel so good and alive i will do it til i find my thing, which i will at some point..

mmm..i feel so good Thank You Fusion Festival.

oh it was a bit sad to leave..i don’ feel like living in a city..

and yeah once again there some more people to put in breastpocket..